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so, basically, i started it in june, but have been stewing for almost a month. not in a bad way. in a "hm, but then there is this" way. whatever... i am refinancing my condo. after 4 years i have some great equity. it is…

i've had a few friends send me very nice messages lately. one who empathized with my loneliness, and while realizing being told you are awesome doesn't make it go away, still told me i was valued. another friend was stressed at a conference but when…

so, at my last sit down with my therapist she asked how i was. i said lonely. i am sad because i feel lonely. she replied "we've got to do something about this. Loneliness kills." and i replied, "yes, i read that research article too."…

the sad are super strong tonight. my refi fell apart for some reason. last week they said all my stuff is fine, this week it isn't. it would have REALLY taken a lot of pressure off me to refi. now that worry plus the singleness…

i think, as we get older, this is the thing we start to run out of. the thing that makes us panic. it isn't exactly money we are worried about, it is having enough of it when we need it. time again. being single? time.