i have had 3 dreams (in like the last 4 days) of patrick "betraying" me. while i did not want to get divorced, patrick never betrayed me. all the dreams have him being with other women. and it hurts SO BADLY. the dream is emotionally painful.

so, this weekend i had some closure that has stopped a loop in my brain. i visited with the "boy who broke my heart" to see how i felt about him. was it getting better? am i getting over the heartache? (also a thing about…

so, basically, i started it in june, but have been stewing for almost a month. not in a bad way. in a "hm, but then there is this" way. whatever... i am refinancing my condo. after 4 years i have some great equity. it is…

i've had a few friends send me very nice messages lately. one who empathized with my loneliness, and while realizing being told you are awesome doesn't make it go away, still told me i was valued. another friend was stressed at a conference but when…

so, at my last sit down with my therapist she asked how i was. i said lonely. i am sad because i feel lonely. she replied "we've got to do something about this. Loneliness kills." and i replied, "yes, i read that research article too."…