i arrived home tonight in my light winter coat, (wet) suede ankle boots and my panties. it was raining something fierce when the club closed. it seemed silly to stand hoping it would stop raining. i ran for it. when i got to my car…

tonight i chopped fruits and vegetables for my meals and snacks next week. i also had coffee with a friend that just got engaged. and had brunch with some married friends. and it feels HORRIBLE. like there is this club and i am not allowed…

i was sad today. my inability to connect with people makes life complicated. life changes and it is hard to roll with it. i mean, one does, i do, but it makes me sad. i felt lonely today. a few years ago we had a…

went to see the new bond film tonight. my goodness i left aroused. between bond himself (played deliciously by Daniel Craig) and Q. OMG Q! nerd heaven. he has a mortgage and two cats. swoon. how i long to watch his nerdiness then periodically molest…

the 29 year-old i met at barbarella is into BDSM. in fact, he just finished a year of serving a mistress. i really need to stop going on dates with 29 year-olds. i like him, and he is adorable, but i don't want kids (he…