(what was already written) yeah, i have just been really sad lately. just not a lot of happy things in my life. boy problems. roommate problems. working too much. tummy PROBLEMS! i talked with my psychiatrist today (was awhile ago now). we are going to…

i think i used to be REALLY busy. but i can't figure out with what. perhaps it is simply that i have not been working 4-5 days a week. or that my days off have been in a row. it's nice. i worry about money,…

rules as i recently explained them. to the boy (see previous post) -playmates isn't for everyone -don't spend the night (encourages deep connection) (this is the rule i have broken TOO many times in the past) -respect is the most important need/trait in the relationship…

or maybe it isn't a lesson? i dunno. but this boy thing is difficult. i don't even want to say frustrating. it is difficult. i am happy that i am feeling this interest, but this boy does not seem to be the possible one. so…

so, there is this boy. we met YEARS ago on OKC. we went on 2 dates, at least i remember two dates (he only remembers one). he didn't talk much. he offered to rub my shoulders. it was odd as we had only hung out…