2010-07-11
patience
i won't get to the patients until the end of the summer
i think one of the reasons i have not been more successful in life has been my inability to do things slowly. gotta build a spreadsheet with 20 pages and lots of linked data? no problem. need to sit down and figure out unix. not so much. it isn't that i don't like to learn. i love new stuff. i loved the unix commands i did learn. i just need movement. this is why i am good in crisis but not so good at waiting for someone to reply (though i have gotten much better in the last 11 months). if i could learn to slow down, take things in at a pace conducive to learning, i think i would be much more successful. then again. i rush through my grammar, but i always wanted to take the time to come up with analysis on the problems we were trying to solve. in studying i don't think to go through material slowly. but i do like to review things. maybe i am just impatient? yoga would probably help, but it is just too slow for me! you see the problem. but this is a serious topic. i think i need to learn to slow down. i really think it would help. then again, maybe i just rush through things i am afraid of? or don't like? i don't know. but i do feel like i am on to something here
did my training day at secret oktober yesterday. i am going to be watching the store next saturday so cassandra AND mary can go on the goth booze cruise. it is cassandra's birthday and she wanted the day off. i have always wanted to help out at the store so it all works out! i doubt i will do this regularly, the girls have it covered, but it is nice to be able and help out. training was fun in that we had a excellent day at the store. we sold 4 corsets! in the dead of summer! lots of scene people came in. i recognized them in one way or another (mostly collars and comments about how people would feel about their outfits). i think being able to speak their language helped. will be there next saturday from 12-8! come down and see me!
haven't been able to control my eating lately. i think it is because i am so bored this summer. nothing to do so i get the munchies. but it is starting to be a problem. so many dresses i can't wear now. i need a fitness cheerleader. i need structure in my life. of course, what i want right now is ice cream. i think i will walk to walgreens. at least i get exercise that way.
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2010-07-24
Peter, train buddy wrote:
For some reason, this seems apropos
http://xkcd.com/308
As for slowing down, you are on to something, but it's a matter of balance. I could write an essay, but restraint's the word for now... Perhaps it's more important that we not judge ourselves harshly or beat ourselves up.
Eating? This solution is surprising, and it assumes you have an iphone or ipod touch, but my brother-in-law tried it, and it worked very well... for him http://www.theiphoneappreview.com01lose-it-iphone-weight-loss Being a review whore, the indications look pretty good to me.
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peter! yeah! i was talking about you with a friend here in austin just this week...
i have fitnesspal on my iPhone. the problem isn't that i don't know how much i am eating. the problem is i can't stop myself! i am SO bored! august is going to be extra awful. not even 2 dumb classes. anyhow... i know when structure re-enters my life i will be better balanced. it is just a matter of what do i do until then? so glad you posted!
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